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The other day, I woke up and my mind stayed behind.
All day long I struggled to make words with a tongue that felt like an ignorant fat worm and was just as uncooperative. I left rambling phone messages capped with brief apologies and hoped I would be out when the calls were returned.
The dumbness even affected my writing. Offering
writing tips to an employee, I jotted "sentice". I
stared at it in horror! I knew that wasn't
the right word, certainly not the write spelling
-- AAHHH I did it again! Terrifying!
I broke for lunch at the deli down the street. On the two-block walk back to work, something remarkable happened. I saw a black iris. Really, it may have been purple but the single bloom was so amazingly dark and rich you could call it black and not be a liar.
My heart soared, it was so beautiful. And next to it was a green and white hosta, the most common of Midwest plants, but growing in a perfect patch of morning sun. Not too much sun, just enough to nurture this rosette of lush, perfectly symmetrical leaves. The leaves were chartreuse with a thick splash of white, more beautiful than any hosta I had ever seen.
I turned the corner and there was a clump of pampas
grass, its leaves straight and geometric and next
to them, a fern, an incredible textural pairing. And
on the neighbor's curb, a pile of trash so interesting
that I stopped for a closer look -- an old
wooden chair with the back broken off, a child's
plastic rocking horse and a blue tub brimming with
aluminum cans, every one a Mountain Dew, sparkling
in the sun.
And then I looked up, just in time to see a woman
walking a dog. But not just any dog, not this day.
No, a boxer, tall, handsome and lean, upholstered
in velvety brown fur. And she was not just
walking him but training -- heel, sit, stay, heel,
sit, stay -- moving forward no more than
a foot at a time, over and over as I stared.
All of it rushed into my consciousness, knocked down my limp brain and exposed me to the moment that simply existed, ready or not, bad hair day or top-of-the-world. The thing I had tried to accomplish in a forty-minute Zen sit the night before had simply come to me that day, the day I left my brain in bed, snug and happy between the sheets.
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